Realization...

Have you ever experienced a depressing, but true realization about yourself? I did this past week. It's sad really. I will say though, that now that I know about it I am going to endeavor to change it.... and here's how I'm going to start. I'm going to tell you all what my realization was....

I start things all the time and NEVER finish. That's right. This blog is a good example. So scattered, didn't stick with it the way I should have.

I started crocheting. I crocheted two scarves that look almost identical then half of something else...

I started knitting. I have knit almost an entire sweater, but lost steam on the last sleeve.

I started cleaning out the closet, the spare room, the bookshelves, the kitchen.... and got a chunk done of it all.

I've started books that I've never bothered to finish - some of that's on principle - they were not good books, but some just got put down.

I started reviewing books and only made it through two and one-third books.

I started running.... then I started walking.

I started a master's program two years ago.... and I'm still at the beginning (this is probably my most embarrassing unfinished).

Seriously, this could go on forever. It seems like I want to try everything - this week I'm going to sew my first article of clothing... or at least START to... I had my first sewing lesson yesterday.

Now, I'm not saying that I need to be doing all of these things, but there are definitely some things that I should be following through on... and this is my first step to finishing them. Most of these are hobbies or little things (minimal eternal consequence), but some are not. They are things that can effect my day-to-day living, my marriage, my self-esteem even.

So my next thing to start is to start finishing things.... and this one is the only one that I'm going to attempt to stick with...

How you may ask... By taking time to consider if what I'm starting is worth finishing. If the answer is no, then I will move on. If it's yes, then I will strive to finish it - no matter how long it takes. I'm going to start considering if I enjoy what I start or if it's out of guilt that I feel I need to finish.

This is going to be an interesting summer!